Two stories submitted for the Crypticon writing contest this year. Deadline is this Saturday. Convention is May 25th-27th. If I make the finals on either, I should hear something between now and then. I am trying not to let the nervous anticipation get the best of me and continue to write & read -- Progress is the key, right?

Yep, I just gotta do this. WRITE SCARED.

Taking myself seriously... seriously.

Trying out SkyDrive through Microsoft. Hopefully with B's laptop back I can get some writing done away from my desktop. I had some great inspiration on some ideas but it happened two seconds before I passed out for the night. I managed to remember most of it, though, when I woke up in the middle of the night and realized what had happened. Which is much better than sleeping the night through and completely forgetting all of it by morning.

My biggest hurdle right now is the fact that our convention season is starting and our biggest party of the year is fast approaching  -- five days over Easter weekend. And the deadline for the Crypticon writing contest is shortly thereafter. If I want to get the TWO submissions done I've set my sights on, then I need to manage my time a little more wisely and stop procrastinating. I also need to start putting more faith in myself and start believing in my own talent. If other people, including those who are proven in the industry, think I've got the stuff it takes... why is it so hard for /me/ to believe it as well? I need to get over it already, it's gone past the point of quirk and is now into the holding-me-back and embarrassing realm.

Like this blog for example. I have ... no readers. None. Yet I post to it as if I do have some, pretend that someone will stumble upon it and find my words interesting, take up some stock in my struggle to find my own voice and win the war that is finishing a novel and continue to follow my sporadic and often rambling postings.... yet I don't do anything like oh, I don't know mention the fact that I have a blog to anyone. I'm embarrassed by promoting myself, about talking about my accomplishments like I'm some sort of braggart. And it doesn't help when I get teased or made fun of by the people who are supposed to be supporting me the most, like I've gotten some huge, uncontrollable ego since I've had one short story published.

Argh.

Where was I going with this? Oh right -- I need to find a balance between the required day job, the duties of Biohazard, the household things I have to do and my writing. I need to make it a priority and make it important... because it is, at least to me. I need to take my writing and myself as an author seriously. I need to stop assuming that everything that comes out of my creative process is utter crap and start having some faith. And I definitely need to start finishing some projects. Like the current short story. And the next one.

And I need to do all of this sooner rather than later.

Like yesterday.

Rustycon 2012

I will be away this weekend at Rustycon 2012. If you're local to Seattle and interested in Science Ficton/Fantasy, think about coming down for a visit. It's a small convention but that doesn't take away from the experience at all. Plus, it's (in my opinion) the best 'intro' for a new-comer.

I can be found at the Biohazard Party on both Friday and Saturday nights.

Follow me on Twitter.com/amairedinsmore for updates throughout the weekend and I'll see you on Monday!

'via Blog this'

The best blessings

There is a special connection between myself and my daughter. It is for her that I want to send the strongest message, so that she grows up loving and respecting herself before anything else. I want her to learn to expect the best from herself, challenge herself and know that no matter what she is strong enough to get through anything. I want her to know without hesitation that she is loved and supported and I want her to be happy, healthy and successful in accomplishing her dreams. My Ash, my miracle baby.

As for Jager... he's my baby too... and much more needy than my little girl.

Yes history repeats itself

Yes, I did do it again. I have completely changed what I was working on. BUT there are a few distinct differences that I would like to point out to you, dear reader, before you throw up your hands and give me up for a lost cause. So bear with me.

The project I was so excited about ... well, lost steam. It has nothing to do with anything other than it simply wasn't working. So in a moment of sheer genius (if I do say so myself) the thought occured to me that combining this idea with another I had started to develop... just might work. And so far it is working. Better than I previous thought possible. I am going to need to change the way I'm looking at this but so far that's been easy enough.

I can only keep working and see what happens from here!

And yes, I am a complete dork.

But I'm trying.... that counts for something right?

Besides, this is what I have outside my windows. And all I want to do is play in it. 

In other news... I have been trimming things that have been killing my muse and taking up my writing time. I am getting myself onto a schedule that accommodates the requirement of work, my needed writing time as well as household chores. Brew has been pitching in and helping me when he can, which is awesome. It really shows his commitment to supporting me. 

Also: Rustycon is this weekend. A much needed break from the Commune and release with good friends. After that... planning for Norwescon. Maybe I can get a ton of work done before then. We'll see. 

Till next time, loves.

I may just be dreaming!

A positive review of constructive criticisim? Whew. When I put those chapters up I knew they weren't publish-ready (not by a gorram mile) but that they were a good representation of the rough draft work in progress.

What was I expecting? Certianly not this. More laughed off the internet, perhaps. Politely asked never to submit again, maybe. A sarcastic flame, definitely.

This is actually something I can take and use to my advantage, something that may just solve the start and stop problems I have been facing with the flow.

Now I know, my dear invisible readers, that one review a successful plan does not make. But its a positive step in the right (write?) direction and I intend to take as much of the positive energy as I can get and use it to my advantage.

Stay tuned, lovlies, for this fantastic mood to be reversed at any moment!

Happy reading to you.

Changes? Shocking.

Another new year, another new project started? Nope, not this time! I can officially state to the delight of my awaiting fans, I've been sticking with the project I started a few months ago and am now about a quarter finished, despite taking a three week break from writing over the holidays. This is pretty unprecedented for me considering that on all other novel projects I have started I've sabotaged myself and subjected the material to rewrites that killed it before it even really began.

I have a whole different feeling about this one though and that's entirely a good thing. I can see the plot through to the end and feel good about it without trying to force new ideas in there.

Breath held, I'll get this finished before the world goes up in December. Cause even if it never sees the light of day beyond my own computer, it'll still be something I finished.

Also: registered for Book Country... let's see how that does for me, shall we?

For now, I am concentrating on getting this story out of my head so these characters can flourish.

Daily writing goal: 1000 words minimum
Current project: Young Adult Fantasy
Current total: 10,682